If you’ve never seen How I Met Your Mother, you should go watch it. Like, ASAP. It made me laugh, made me cry, and made me realize a lot about myself as a person.
For those of you unfamiliar with the show, it centers around a guy named Ted and his interactions with his four best friends. I’m not really good with explaining TV shows, so you should either watch it or Google it for any information beyond that.
Ted is somewhat obsessed with finding his soulmate. He bounces from girl to girl throughout the episodes, sure every time that he has found his future wife. As the show progresses, everyone else is happy and he… isn’t.
I’m afraid that I’m becoming Ted Mosby.
I’m not even twenty and I’m already terrified that I’m just not going to find my person. I feel like I bounce from relationship to relationship because I’m trying to find something perfect that isn’t going to exist for me for a while. And I don’t know how to stop.
Well, kind of. I think I’m going to take a break from dating for a while. I deserve it.
The thing is, these women don’t really change Ted that much. He’s a fully formed person. I’ve changed a lot in a year but it’s not boys that change me. I am myself and I am proud of who I am as a person. I don’t want anyone to change me. I just want someone who compliments me.
I know that this all sounds completely ridiculous because I’m young. But why does it have to? Why can’t I be a career and goal driven woman that also wants to settle down young? Why can’t I want to be happy with someone else? Why does everyone tell me that I’m rushing my life when I already know what I want?
I suppose that I really do sound like Ted Mosby right now, and that he annoys a lot of people. I’m especially frustrated because someone called me a “perpetual girlfriend” the other day and I don’t think that’s a fair term. I choose who I am. I choose who I date. I choose not to do casual hook-ups, but committed relationships. I’m writing my own story – but I don’t want to write alone anymore.
Sorry I’m ranting. I swear that this had a lot more direction when I was writing it in my head. Either way, I’m Ted Mosby right now and I want to be Lily Aldrin. I suppose that I should just be more patient.